I’ll trust in you;

Farewell, Michael Jackson.

I suddenly have so many things to blog about I don’t know where to start. Michael Jackson passed away three days ago, I didn’t really feel much. It didn’t really hit me that he’ll never perform again, in front of the millions of fans who simply adore him. He was a legend, nothing less. He made history and nobody is going to forget him anytime soon.

It was only last night when I was watch MTV and they were showing a series of Michael Jackson’s music videos, it was then when I realised how he used to play such a huge part in my childhood. Kor and I used to try and dance along to his music videos, failing terribly of course. How his song was the first song I actually cried after listening to it, how his songs had everyone on their feet and moving to the beat. How his concerts practically brought the whole world together as one.

He was the King of Pop, but the scandals came of course, only after his death did Evan Chandler come forward and clear MJ’s name, saying that his father had made him tell lies to the police so that they could get out of poverty. Michael Jackson will never be forgotten, not now not ever. He has changed the world, changed some people’s lives, for the better. I know he’s gone now, but his words will remain forever.

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Had a pretty rough day/night/week whatever. I didn’t hate it that much at first, but now looking back, I realised how stupid and foolish I looked, I honestly thought you were different. I thought maybe, just maybe, you’d be different from the rest. Turns out you’re not only just like them, maybe you’re just ten times worse. I really don’t know what I should be feeling right now, a tinge of resentment? Or a heart filled with hatred directed at you? Because right now, what I feel isn’t just a tinge, I feel like slapping you so badly.

I don’t know how you can be two people at one time, I don’t know how you can act in front of me as if you did nothing wrong. Who are you, really. I’ve never asked myself that until now. Have you even cared about what your actions would bring about? You’ve only cared for yourself haven’t you, the feelings of others has never entered your mind. I won’t say I hate you, because its probably in your nature I don’t give a shit. What you did only made her regret, you made her regret her decision to help. Sometimes, I really wonder what goes through your stupid brain.

Isn’t blood supposed to be thicker than water? Then why are you doing this, I don’t understand. Do you feel better about yourself doing this, does it make you feel more matured? I’m sorry if it does make you feel that way, because your actions have only made us seen the childish, immature side of you that I wish you had not shown us. I used to respect you, a hell lot, until you started doing things that I didn’t like. That your family didn’t like, but you did it anyway, only thinking about yourself and what you want. Did you ever thing about your parents? They have to mentally prepare themselves, prepare themselves as they may be losing a son anytime soon. What have you become, I don’t want to know, but then again, you don’t have to answer me, you don’t have anything to prove to me, afterall I’m nothing to you.

I think this week has just been sucking because I’m being so irritated with people who can’t see things from my point of view and I don’t know why. I keep asking myself why can’t people think like that? Why must they do things like that. I’m getting so annoyed, really. Even with things I’m not supposed to interfere in, before I know it, I’m getting my hands dirty.

I think I’m getting some kind of disorder.

June 28, 2009. Uncategorized.